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Wednesday Evening

I keep flicking through the photos of interrailing and can't stop being amazed that these are my memories. This happened to me, I helped make it happen, and I'm so happy that I had this opportunity and had a good time.

I've been reading We Need to Talk About Kevin by Shriver. I dreamt I was trying to keep a demon child out of a shed by holding shut two doors. The little sh!t stabbed me with a syringe. He turned into a little doll. I skewered him with a toothpick, ripped his head off and threw him away. ... I do worry about myself sometimes.


Silent Witness started again

Silent Witness was pretty intense.
No way in hell would a forensics person leave a thumbprint on Nikki's clock. And her thumbprint's in the database which means the perpetrator, who seems to be on the inside, had access to it too.
Everything stinks of corruption.
The embittered son is going to do something stupid.
The ginger lawyer probably has something to do with the old black lady's case before she supposedly commit suicide.
Who's this Carmichael guy? Looks like trouble.
This case is interesting because it involves Nikki's past.
When is the next episode?


*opens weeks-old pesto jar* is this pesto? or pesto-coloured mould?
*cycling* aww a cute snail in the middle of the pavement! oh, it's a leaf
*ends every group coursework message with a passive-aggressive smiley to conceal murderous intent*
*conceal don't feel*

Almost finished White Teeth. It's definitely readable but I don't feel it's going to make a huge impression on me. I suppose it's good to read something different though, something about people whose lives and circumstances are so different to mine, within the same country.


Favourite Sci-Fi

Shelley: Frankenstein
Orwell: 1984
Adams: H2G2
Wells: Time Machine, Invisible Man
Asimov: I, Robot
Banks: Player of Games
Card: Ender's Game
Stross: Saturn's Children, Neptune's Brood
Bacigalupi: Windup Girl

Ex Machina
Edge of Tomorrow

Orphan Black
Doctor Who


Windup Girl

It's a bit of a brick and I was about halfway before I really got my head around who's who in the various factions in the universe - Akkarat, Pracha, white shirts, Trade, Environment - but I was gradually sucked deeper and deeper into Bacigalupi's The Windup Girl. This is not a happy or optimistic read. Brutality, corruption, screaming injustice. "Tit for tat until we're all dead."

Windup Girl and Girl With All the Gifts spoilersCollapse )


Episode 7

Episode 6

Episode 5


Rudy: we had a purpose, just like you
Helena: no, you are rapist

We were on a coach and I was half-listening to a conversation my friend was having behind me and I think it was about uni and things that had happened to someone she knew, and I heard the line "well it depends on what your definition of rape is". Well if it wasn't rape it was probably sexual assault which is also disgusting, selfish, cruel. I don't know from hearsay or experience but sometimes I feel people can think themselves into believing that no, I'm/he's not a rapist, it wasn't rape, we were drunk or we were in a club and I wouldn't really mean to ever hurt anyone and it's acceptable to act like that in these circumstances, right?

Maybe it's simplistic and naive but I love how Helena boils it down. Rape is rape, your purpose is irrelevant, and you're a repulsive piece of shit. Murder can be in self-defence and can be morally justified sometimes. Torture I'm not sure, but you could argue that if it yields life-saving information, it's justifiable too. But rape? I can't think of any circumstance in which it can come close to being justified.